Thursday, July 03, 2008

A Letter I Can Never Send

Dear Recipient:

I really don't think I can talk about this. But, since you are the only person to address this issue on a personal level, I feel compelled to respond.

I am so overwhelmingly angry about this whole thing that I can barely function. Not even calling him in for an interview is a slap in my face that I won't soon forget, if ever. Then to be lied to about why he wasn't brought in? More than I can take. Not only does this confirm that I can never trust anyone again, but also confirms the lack of respect that everyone here has for me and my intelligence. I don't have a Ph.D., but I am NOT an idiot.

Todd keeps telling me to let it go, get over it, move on. I simply cannot. He keeps saying, "Don't burn any bridges." He believes that he might actually have a shot at a future position. I am not about to swallow the crap that was just fed to me in the blind (and false) hope that he will be hired --- or even considered --- in the future. Because I know now that it won't happen.

It probably isn't rational or healthy being this upset. But for me, Todd is worth it.

1 comment:

Katie J said...

I can understand why you're so upset. I would be pissed off too and when I feel someone has slighted someone I love and then assumes I'm an idiot, it's not an easy thing to get over. I do agree with Todd that you would feel better if you can let it go. But honestly? I wouldn't be ready for that yet either. Sorry you're going through this Gina.